WEBVTT 00:00:05.762 --> 00:00:11.693 - Welcome back to My Spiritual Experience with your host, Brother Sadiq. Today we have in the house our 00:00:11.693 --> 00:00:17.741 - special guest, Brian Williams, also known as Be Nasty. What's going on, man? What's happening, brother? 00:00:17.741 --> 00:00:23.556 - Nothing much, man. Appreciate you inviting me on your platform, man. I appreciate it, man. I'm glad 00:00:23.556 --> 00:00:29.371 - to have you. As you know, and this is what I say every time I have a guest, it's very much an honor 00:00:29.371 --> 00:00:35.710 - for me to have guests and people brave enough and confident enough to talk about their spiritual experience. 00:00:36.258 --> 00:00:43.639 - As you know, this entire show is about the everyday man and his experiences with spirituality and how 00:00:43.639 --> 00:00:51.164 - it relates to him and how it relates to all of us. My idea is that the more we talk about these things, 00:00:51.164 --> 00:00:58.617 - the more we bring them out of the closet, the less we fear them. Fear seems to be a big theme in these 00:00:58.617 --> 00:01:06.142 - times, and I think us sharing these types of things will make us more amicable to our spiritual selves. 00:01:06.306 --> 00:01:12.289 - This is my effort, and today we have, like I said, our special guest, Be Nasty in the house. Hey man, 00:01:12.289 --> 00:01:18.155 - I like how you worded that, man. We do need to start more dialogue, and I couldn't wait to get this 00:01:18.155 --> 00:01:24.021 - off my chest, really. I'm just happy to be here so I can just share what I've been going through. I 00:01:24.021 --> 00:01:30.004 - know everybody go through what they go through, but for the past couple of 10 years, I've been trying 00:01:30.004 --> 00:01:31.998 - to dive deeper into spirituality. 00:01:32.322 --> 00:01:39.212 - We can do it, man. Very, very, very good. This is sounding like a good intro to what we're about to 00:01:39.212 --> 00:01:46.309 - do here. And what I do generally in all of my conversations about spirituality is ask the brothers and 00:01:46.309 --> 00:01:53.475 - the sisters, what was your first experience recognizing that something is going on outside of what they 00:01:53.475 --> 00:02:01.054 - told you that everyday life is? What was your first spiritual experience? Well, my first spiritual experience 00:02:01.954 --> 00:02:07.558 - I guess I'll start off by saying I wasn't never, I wasn't really raised in a church like that per se. 00:02:07.558 --> 00:02:13.052 - Like we did kind of what everybody, I don't want to say everybody, I don't know what everybody else 00:02:13.052 --> 00:02:18.930 - did, but you know, I probably went to church say out of the six months, I probably went to church probably 00:02:18.930 --> 00:02:24.589 - like once or twice, like every six months, probably Easter. But I'll say my first experience with like 00:02:24.589 --> 00:02:29.918 - religion and spirituality, I guess it was like, I remember I went to church, it was like Easter. 00:02:30.658 --> 00:02:38.741 - It was an Easter Sunday. I don't know what year it was, but you know, I always I just start off by saying 00:02:38.741 --> 00:02:46.671 - I was always kind of just skeptical about everything. It was just the first thing I saw was a big white 00:02:46.671 --> 00:02:52.542 - Jesus on on the window at the church, you know, so that's the like the first 00:02:53.346 --> 00:02:58.943 - thing I can remember was, who is this guy? And I think I asked somebody, like, who is it? They was like, 00:02:58.943 --> 00:03:04.380 - that's Jesus. I'm like, that's Jesus? You know what I'm saying? That was my first, that was my first, 00:03:04.380 --> 00:03:09.657 - I was like, that's Jesus? I was like, I'm in the middle of the hood too, you know what I'm saying? 00:03:09.657 --> 00:03:15.254 - I was like, I think I was in East Chicago, you know what I'm saying? I was born in Maryville, Maryville, 00:03:15.254 --> 00:03:21.118 - Gary, and Northwest Indiana, you know what I'm saying? But I think the church was in East Chicago, I believe. 00:03:21.282 --> 00:03:30.264 - I was always kind of just skeptical from that point. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? Yeah, that's I 00:03:30.264 --> 00:03:39.875 - don't mean to cut you, but that is not at all uncommon for a child. Right. And the youth in our community. 00:03:39.875 --> 00:03:49.217 - You know what I mean? Like you said, that's him. Right. When you when you know, I've been hearing about 00:03:49.217 --> 00:03:50.654 - this for years. 00:03:52.162 --> 00:03:59.671 - And that's who everybody prays to, too, you know what I'm saying? So I kind of just had to take a step 00:03:59.671 --> 00:04:07.544 - back. And then I'm watching everybody hoop and holler. You know what I'm saying? I'm watching the preacher. 00:04:07.544 --> 00:04:14.907 - When I went down, I was like, what the? What's going on? You know what I'm saying? I don't want you. 00:04:14.907 --> 00:04:20.958 - I'm sorry. I don't want you. Oh, what's up, man? That had to be my first time. OK. 00:04:21.250 --> 00:04:27.312 - Five years old? This is what I can remember. This is my first. This is what I can remember. Yeah, five 00:04:27.312 --> 00:04:33.375 - years old. Around that time. Okay. That makes it up. You know, everybody buys suits. I'm like, I ain't 00:04:33.375 --> 00:04:39.320 - had a suit all year. I'm like, what, what is this event? What is this event about? Right. And then I 00:04:39.320 --> 00:04:45.382 - remember you want to talk about spirituality. You know, so I, you know, that was the first time I seen 00:04:45.382 --> 00:04:49.502 - somebody catch the Holy Ghost. That day? Yeah. Okay. You know, I see, 00:04:50.050 --> 00:04:55.833 - I ain't know what it was, you know? Of course. I said it was this older lady, and I'm sitting there 00:04:55.833 --> 00:05:01.674 - and all I heard was, ah! She jumped up, crying, screaming, ah! And she get to speaking in tongues. I 00:05:01.674 --> 00:05:07.515 - didn't know what tongues was. All I heard was, you know? Right, right, right, right. I don't want to 00:05:07.515 --> 00:05:13.299 - mimic that. Yeah, of course, of course. You're like, you five years old, it's just babbling at that 00:05:13.299 --> 00:05:17.694 - point. That's what I'm thinking, you know what I'm saying? And she running. 00:05:17.954 --> 00:05:27.117 - So it sounds like it sounds like your whole initial experience with, we're going to say religion, religion, 00:05:27.117 --> 00:05:35.941 - religion. That's not spirituality. Yes. Thank you. Thank you. We agree. Yeah. Your first encounter with 00:05:35.941 --> 00:05:42.814 - religion was a little shocking. Very. Like, who is this dude? What is she doing? 00:05:43.106 --> 00:05:48.491 - Why are we dressed like this? Yeah, I get you, I get you. I couldn't put it together. It's confusing. 00:05:48.491 --> 00:05:54.087 - Very confusing. Yeah, and so did you, did you, what was the explanation from, so I ain't, I'm not saying, 00:05:54.087 --> 00:05:59.472 - you know, we five year old, we may not have the wherewithal to go and question our mom or our dad and 00:05:59.472 --> 00:06:04.962 - say, what is this? No. What is this about? I have a lot of questions. So you did ask? I asked everybody 00:06:04.962 --> 00:06:10.242 - I could ask. I love it, I love it because that's, when you see this cat who they say is Jesus, that 00:06:10.242 --> 00:06:12.670 - should be the natural instinct. But you know, 00:06:12.770 --> 00:06:22.275 - Wondering question that should be natural like Detective God bless you young man. Go ahead. Let's hear 00:06:22.275 --> 00:06:31.595 - what I'm sorry. I'm sorry Tell us the story sir, you asked you asked mom you asked dad who you asked 00:06:31.595 --> 00:06:40.638 - Okay, but I can't remember I remember I asked a preacher I asked a preacher one time, you know, I 00:06:40.770 --> 00:06:47.290 - And the preacher pretty much told me this was what I got out of him. Okay. Have faith. Didn't cut it 00:06:47.290 --> 00:06:53.940 - for me. What was the question? The question was this was after I had to be I was much older after this 00:06:53.940 --> 00:07:00.396 - when I really started asking questions. So I guess he's asking me when I asked when I was little or 00:07:00.396 --> 00:07:07.110 - when I kind of let's let's stay with the mom there first because that's your first shocking experience. 00:07:07.110 --> 00:07:09.886 - Right. And then what did they give you for 00:07:10.018 --> 00:07:16.181 - that energy like you had, you fucked up, obviously. I'm sorry. You're confused, ain't me. You know what 00:07:16.181 --> 00:07:22.165 - I'm saying? My guests know how I talk. I'm from Detroit. This might be a slightly different episode, 00:07:22.165 --> 00:07:28.269 - but hey. That's what we need. Like I said, it's everyday people, man. But I ain't get too, pretty much 00:07:28.269 --> 00:07:34.372 - I ain't get too much out of my parents. You know what I'm saying? They pretty much just said, this is, 00:07:34.372 --> 00:07:36.446 - my biggest fear was going to hell. 00:07:36.546 --> 00:07:43.976 - Okay. I'm just saying they pretty much say you got to do this. You got to believe in this or else you're 00:07:43.976 --> 00:07:51.264 - going to hell. You know what I'm saying? So pretty much I felt fear into believing in religion because 00:07:51.264 --> 00:07:58.340 - it's not spirituality yet. Bro, I love this episode. Let me tell you why because your story relates 00:07:58.340 --> 00:08:00.958 - to more people than you know, right? 00:08:01.090 --> 00:08:08.399 - You see, 100% and I love it, bro. I love it. Cause cause your, your story going to relate to way more 00:08:08.399 --> 00:08:15.637 - people than my story. Cause I've, I've been chasing re you know, religion and spirituality and these 00:08:15.637 --> 00:08:22.947 - kinds of aspects of life for so long that people feel like, well, that he talking about stuff. That's 00:08:22.947 --> 00:08:30.686 - my sister say like sci-fi, you know, sci-fi science fiction, right? Nobody on that level with thinking, but 00:08:31.138 --> 00:08:37.085 - Us having this conversation is going to be beautiful for anybody who watch it, bro, because this is 00:08:37.085 --> 00:08:43.269 - where it all starts. Yeah, this is where it starts. It starts with the fear that your parents give you, 00:08:43.269 --> 00:08:49.275 - society give you, of going to hell. It starts with the confusion. And this is a beautiful breakdown, 00:08:49.275 --> 00:08:54.984 - bro. I'm loving it. And now you want to figure it out for yourself. If I saw the past 10 years, 00:08:54.984 --> 00:09:00.158 - I was like, OK, let me figure this out for myself. And now it eventually evolved into, 00:09:00.258 --> 00:09:06.022 - spiritual. You know what I'm saying? Yes, sir. Yeah, that's what we have with it. Yes, sir. So, I want 00:09:06.022 --> 00:09:11.674 - to go back though. I want to go back because you mentioned uh you mean you I had a conversation with 00:09:11.674 --> 00:09:17.326 - a preacher, right? About fourteen because I had so when I was when I was a young man, my mom used to 00:09:17.326 --> 00:09:23.090 - send me. I grew up in Detroit. My mom used to send me to Evansville. Right. With my aunt. Right. She's 00:09:23.090 --> 00:09:28.687 - deep into the church. I'm talking about like four or five times a week. You know, you know, they go 00:09:28.687 --> 00:09:29.470 - to all of the 00:09:29.698 --> 00:09:35.495 - you know, Bible study and choir practice. So you all, you know, you in that one four, five times a week. 00:09:35.495 --> 00:09:41.126 - So in the summer, moms would send me down there. So, you know, I ain't in the hood with the cats with 00:09:41.126 --> 00:09:46.812 - idle time, you know, idle time in the hood. You, you doing things, you know what I'm saying? What they 00:09:46.812 --> 00:09:52.388 - say, that's the devil's playground. Right, right, right. So, so moms knew that. So she would send me 00:09:52.388 --> 00:09:57.246 - out there with, you know, my auntie, the church lady, which I ain't mind, you know, so. 00:09:57.794 --> 00:10:02.278 - She had a garden, we used to go down to the lake, so she liked nature like I did, so I was cool with 00:10:02.278 --> 00:10:06.851 - it. And you know, she go to church so much, you finally listen to the man. What are you talking about, 00:10:06.851 --> 00:10:11.424 - man? What you talking about? You know what I'm saying? You're the preacher, I always thought. What are 00:10:11.424 --> 00:10:15.864 - you talking about? What are you talking about, right? You're going to listen. Finally, I'm going to 00:10:15.864 --> 00:10:20.126 - listen. What are you talking about? Oh, okay, you talking about Jesus and flipping over tables. 00:10:20.386 --> 00:10:25.997 - So Jesus sounded me like he understand my position as a black man in America and injustice and justice 00:10:25.997 --> 00:10:31.553 - and balance and fairness and equality. So I'm like, I'm digging Jesus, bro. You know what I'm saying? 00:10:31.553 --> 00:10:37.110 - So I'm digging Jesus. So the next year I go to, you know, I go every summer. Next year, I'm like, I'm 00:10:37.110 --> 00:10:42.721 - getting baptized, bro. I got, I'm fired up. I want to get baptized. So I get baptized. But after I get 00:10:42.721 --> 00:10:47.678 - baptized, I asked the preacher about some things that I'm reading in the Bible that didn't 00:10:48.962 --> 00:10:54.388 - that didn't settle with me. And in this very beginning, and I couldn't remember what it was, but I'm 00:10:54.388 --> 00:11:00.029 - so glad we have this conversation because I remember what it is now. In the very beginning of the Bible, 00:11:00.029 --> 00:11:05.617 - it talks about in those days, there were giants in the land. Right. And this is like the very beginning 00:11:05.617 --> 00:11:11.204 - of the book. Right. And you go ask about that and they don't they the preacher man ain't got many words 00:11:11.204 --> 00:11:16.254 - for you. Right. And I got the same thing. You got half faith. Right. I didn't get half faith. 00:11:16.546 --> 00:11:22.952 - Cause my, I kept, you know, kept pressing with questions. I'm 14, right? I'm older. I wasn't five. 00:11:22.952 --> 00:11:29.681 - I was 14. So I'm like, whatever what I'm saying. He like, you know, you ain't supposed to question God. 00:11:29.681 --> 00:11:36.540 - He turned it around. Like you said, yeah. So I understand exactly where that happened because it happened 00:11:36.540 --> 00:11:42.558 - to me, bro. And that's what it do. It leads you on your own quest to know, bro. If God real, 00:11:43.778 --> 00:11:49.148 - He got to know that I'm asking and I wonder and I, you know what I'm saying? It's not good, bro. It's 00:11:49.148 --> 00:11:54.413 - not healthy. And it's, uh, it's sad because this is something I talk about about, like everybody in 00:11:54.413 --> 00:11:59.888 - the West, you know, I study, I try to, you know, I ain't trying to be all flossy. I'm just saying, I'll 00:11:59.888 --> 00:12:05.205 - be looking at, I've been looking at since I was about 17, what the hell happened to black people and 00:12:05.205 --> 00:12:10.470 - what happened to, so it allows, it makes you look at a bigger picture scenario other than just your 00:12:10.470 --> 00:12:11.102 - own. Right. 00:12:11.330 --> 00:12:17.265 - and then you see the society, right? And when you see this, the West is taught that you are born sinners. 00:12:17.265 --> 00:12:22.976 - All I'm talking about, damn near Europe, America, all these countries of the West, what they call the 00:12:22.976 --> 00:12:28.855 - West and New York, all that kind of shit. All these motherfuckers are taught that they are born sinners. 00:12:28.855 --> 00:12:34.735 - So you started out a piece of shit and you got to figure out how to get right, piece of shit. And that's 00:12:34.735 --> 00:12:38.654 - a hell of a perspective to be born from, to have to fight from under, 00:12:38.818 --> 00:12:43.284 - to understand that I'm really just not that, and then I have, you see what I'm saying? You got a long, 00:12:43.284 --> 00:12:47.620 - it's a, they put a hell of a battle in the mind of the average person by doing that. That's what, I 00:12:47.620 --> 00:12:52.173 - think you answered your question, because that's when I started doing my own research, you know, because 00:12:52.173 --> 00:12:56.770 - that was my first class when I went to college, not to cut you off, just to interject. No, I love, you're 00:12:56.770 --> 00:13:01.106 - the interviewee, I just wanted to share our likeness and story at 14 asking to preach to me. Right, 00:13:01.106 --> 00:13:05.572 - because it went from 14 to me going through high school to me getting, you know, going to college, you 00:13:05.572 --> 00:13:07.870 - know what I'm saying? My first class in college was, 00:13:08.066 --> 00:13:14.381 - sociology, you know what I'm saying? And, um, that just blew my mind really because the bigger picture, 00:13:14.381 --> 00:13:20.636 - it was a bigger picture. They, they dove into the church, you know, and that's what, when you say what 00:13:20.636 --> 00:13:26.951 - happened to black people, as far as what I can see, it started with religion. You know what I'm saying? 00:13:26.951 --> 00:13:33.084 - It's like religion has to go all the way back to slavery days, you know, my God, all the way back to 00:13:33.084 --> 00:13:34.238 - slavery days. God. 00:13:34.402 --> 00:13:40.362 - I love this conversation young man. How old are you young man? I just turned 40. God bless you. I appreciate 00:13:40.362 --> 00:13:45.994 - your conversation because like I said, not only this conversation with us, I know this is what's going 00:13:45.994 --> 00:13:51.625 - to be sparking you to talk to these younger cats about too because they need to understand this go all 00:13:51.625 --> 00:13:57.148 - the way back to slavery. This is before us, your granddaddy, your great granddaddy. That's what I've 00:13:57.148 --> 00:14:02.014 - been saying and this conversation gonna lead to all of this. This is God time right now. 00:14:02.242 --> 00:14:08.155 - People don't see people, people don't understand it. What I call these conversations is to gather in 00:14:08.155 --> 00:14:14.010 - his name and it's never guided by me. It's guided by what come out the conversation, the spirit and 00:14:14.010 --> 00:14:19.924 - the energy of. Yes. And what you saying is, is, is, is, is shaking me inside, bro, because these are 00:14:19.924 --> 00:14:25.310 - the conversations that I'd be wanting to have that I cannot generally have without somebody 00:14:25.442 --> 00:14:32.393 - feeling like their toes can step down. But this shit go all the way back to slavery, bro. I'm talking 00:14:32.393 --> 00:14:39.208 - about the division of the black family. I'm talking about the man-woman war that's going on to this 00:14:39.208 --> 00:14:46.296 - very fucking day in the black community. The low consciousness in relation to the spiritual nature that 00:14:46.296 --> 00:14:52.702 - we are born from, why they used to call us soul brother number one. You know what I'm saying? 00:14:52.834 --> 00:14:57.931 - Look, you know what I'm saying? We were born from faith, bro. If you come from slavery, all you have 00:14:57.931 --> 00:15:03.129 - is faith. All you got is faith that if I keep doing right and keep doing good and keep doing the right 00:15:03.129 --> 00:15:08.175 - thing, then God got to bless me to get something better. Something better got to keep coming to me. 00:15:08.175 --> 00:15:13.323 - That's how they get you. That's what I've got about to cut you off. But that's what I got out of that 00:15:13.323 --> 00:15:18.420 - sociology class. It's like they'll promise you streets of gold. They'll promise you eternal life and 00:15:18.420 --> 00:15:22.558 - everything. But right now, man, you got to work for me. You know what I'm saying? 00:15:22.754 --> 00:15:29.468 - But after you don't work for me and after you've done giving me everything and being obedient, after 00:15:29.468 --> 00:15:36.182 - you do everything I'm told you to do like you better do. And after you just die and then go and then 00:15:36.182 --> 00:15:42.829 - that's when you'll be in the streets ago. And that's when you'll go back to glory. My goodness. You 00:15:42.829 --> 00:15:49.610 - know what I'm saying? It was brother. It was a grand hustle. And and God knows it was wrong. And it's 00:15:49.610 --> 00:15:52.734 - it's experience, in my opinion, is going to be 00:15:52.994 --> 00:16:03.681 - one of the transformative links to this country's downfall, right? You can't use any level of spirituality 00:16:03.681 --> 00:16:13.869 - or spiritual process in a foul way and not have it come back to you in a long, true form. So what I'm 00:16:13.869 --> 00:16:19.262 - saying about that is like what they talk about karma. 00:16:19.362 --> 00:16:25.580 - Right. Everything comes back. You can't do a thing. What you sow, you reap. All of this is real and 00:16:25.580 --> 00:16:31.799 - true. Right. And so the history of this nation, the history of this country, the history of America 00:16:31.799 --> 00:16:38.204 - is ingrained in the land. It's ingrained in the atmosphere. It's ingrained in the people. Right. Okay. 00:16:38.204 --> 00:16:43.614 - And so you can't deny that justice must come to these people who have been so unjustly 00:16:44.898 --> 00:16:52.303 - you know, treated, right? It's a proven reality, right? And so my thing is this, when people talk about 00:16:52.303 --> 00:16:59.495 - God and spirituality and justice, and how is this fair for black Americans and did it did it did it? 00:16:59.495 --> 00:17:06.616 - How does this relate to God, right? We got to look at things on a level of the individual soul to a 00:17:06.616 --> 00:17:11.102 - degree, right? In my opinion, the reason I say that is because 00:17:13.538 --> 00:17:20.065 - From the realm of what people talk about as spirit, we choose our life. So you chose to be black. I 00:17:20.065 --> 00:17:26.788 - chose to be black. You understand what I'm saying? Explain it again. People say that as a soul, before 00:17:26.788 --> 00:17:33.315 - you come to this earth, you choose your life. As a soul. Yes. That's what they say. You choose your 00:17:33.315 --> 00:17:39.907 - life. You chose to be black. A black man. I chose to be black. A black man. And in the spirit realm, 00:17:39.907 --> 00:17:41.278 - before we came here, 00:17:41.410 --> 00:17:46.699 - We knew what we were getting into. And we said, I can take that shit. I'm going to do something with 00:17:46.699 --> 00:17:51.988 - that shit. I'm going to show them some shit. I'm going to be that shit. I'm going to prove that. You 00:17:51.988 --> 00:17:57.539 - see what I'm saying? Spirit round, we knew that. We got here, the matrix here. And now we got to navigate 00:17:57.539 --> 00:18:02.776 - it. You see what I'm saying? And I'm going to tell you this, because I'm on my spiritual thing. But 00:18:02.776 --> 00:18:08.012 - I'm going to tell you after me, I started with that perspective that I'm a black man. And so I have 00:18:08.012 --> 00:18:11.102 - this dichotomy. And many black people in America have this 00:18:11.682 --> 00:18:18.954 - mental uh challenge within themselves is my spirituality related to humanity as a species or 00:18:18.954 --> 00:18:26.929 - is my spirituality and my gifts and my efforts related to my black people who have been done this way 00:18:26.929 --> 00:18:34.983 - knowing how my people have been done right you understand what i'm saying you're right so that is that 00:18:34.983 --> 00:18:39.518 - is a challenge right because ultimately the white man has 00:18:39.970 --> 00:18:46.957 - been put in a hell of a position, too, in relation to being in that position, right? OK? So now, if 00:18:46.957 --> 00:18:54.013 - we're talking about spiritually, they can say, well, I didn't do it. I didn't do it. I didn't do it. 00:18:54.013 --> 00:19:01.140 - You can say that. But you know that the benefits and the societal expression from history to today is 00:19:01.140 --> 00:19:07.358 - in your benefit. You inherited money. Your kids had cars at 16. You see what I'm saying? 00:19:07.458 --> 00:19:12.678 - You could buy college funds. You know what I'm saying? This is due to certain inherent. And it ain't 00:19:12.678 --> 00:19:17.898 - all of them. Of course, that's not all of them. So we've all been put into a social structure that I 00:19:17.898 --> 00:19:23.119 - call the matrix that makes us go like this. You see what I'm saying? It makes us go like this. But I 00:19:23.119 --> 00:19:28.494 - talked to my mom then, man. And I talked to the OGs and the old heads. And they said they was poor with 00:19:28.494 --> 00:19:33.818 - the white people. And they was poor right with them. And they taught some of the white folks shit. And 00:19:33.818 --> 00:19:37.022 - the white folks taught them shit. So you see what I'm saying? 00:19:37.538 --> 00:19:44.087 - It's all of a social structuring that is meant to be a part of the matrix that you have to overcome 00:19:44.087 --> 00:19:50.636 - in order to understand your own personal place in this game. Right. And it's a hell of a dichotomy, 00:19:50.636 --> 00:19:57.251 - especially like I said, I was talking to somebody about the other day, you a black man. How the hell 00:19:57.251 --> 00:20:04.062 - you just, you know, you can't, you can't just openly be for everybody. You've got to have some sense of 00:20:04.642 --> 00:20:10.818 - mental protection in the way that your people have been treated you understand i'm saying right yeah 00:20:10.818 --> 00:20:17.117 - we gotta treat each other better too like as far as that's like the black family that's i think that's 00:20:17.117 --> 00:20:23.415 - the nucleus of everything and it got broken down you know and i can speak personally as far as my i've 00:20:23.415 --> 00:20:24.638 - been trying to make 00:20:26.018 --> 00:20:31.964 - Black family, you know what I'm saying, man? I'm catching hell, you know what I'm saying? Yes, sir. 00:20:31.964 --> 00:20:37.969 - You know what I'm saying? I'm catching hell. And it's sad to say, man, but all of this shit was done 00:20:37.969 --> 00:20:43.915 - to us. And that's the thing that is hard for me sometimes, because I see the things that we do, and 00:20:43.915 --> 00:20:49.920 - the shit is negative, bro. Very negative. Yeah, I'm talking about the shit my brothers say, the shit 00:20:49.920 --> 00:20:55.390 - my sisters say, the shit my brothers do, the shit my sisters do. Right. The kids are doing. 00:20:55.618 --> 00:21:01.007 - how lost we are, how far from where we're supposed to be. It makes me wonder, do Mexicans do this? Do 00:21:01.007 --> 00:21:06.449 - white people do this to each other? Do other races do this to each other? Let me tell you, something's 00:21:06.449 --> 00:21:11.891 - been done to us, bro. Something's been done to us exclusively that's not been done to anyone else. And 00:21:11.891 --> 00:21:17.332 - people say, oh, slavery happened to all of the people. You know what I'm saying? Slavery didn't happen 00:21:17.332 --> 00:21:19.710 - to all the people the way it happened to us. 00:21:20.802 --> 00:21:26.781 - If you was a German slave and there were German slaves, there were white slaves all throughout history, 00:21:26.781 --> 00:21:32.530 - there was all different races of slaves, right? But hardly any of them, I don't believe that any of 00:21:32.530 --> 00:21:38.280 - them on the earth were done as we were. You don't know where you're from. You don't know if you are 00:21:38.280 --> 00:21:44.144 - African or you were born as a black person in this land. If you don't know your native roots are from 00:21:44.144 --> 00:21:50.238 - here, because there is an argument that there were black people here when Christopher Columbus came here. 00:21:50.498 --> 00:21:55.980 - They was already here and he said that he said it today. They got it in journals and shit like this 00:21:55.980 --> 00:22:01.461 - This is already so are we really from here because all of our history is a lie, right? We know that 00:22:01.461 --> 00:22:07.217 - that's what I'm saying. All of the things that you have to be Detached from your thinking once you start 00:22:07.217 --> 00:22:12.809 - becoming conscious of shit, right? Cuz you realize oh damn they lied about that. That was a lie. This 00:22:12.809 --> 00:22:14.782 - is a lie That's a lie. That's a lie 00:22:15.170 --> 00:22:20.358 - You probably were. I think I was. This is what I'm saying. My family, they was doing like the lineage 00:22:20.358 --> 00:22:25.546 - and all the hereditary trees and whatnot. But you know, the communication, I don't know. I can't even 00:22:25.546 --> 00:22:30.633 - really speak too much on it, but that's the thing as far as communication be all crossed up a word, 00:22:30.633 --> 00:22:35.770 - don't nobody know what's going on, you know what I'm saying? It was intended to be done to you, bro. 00:22:35.770 --> 00:22:40.857 - Right. And this is the thing. Why would they say, so if you was from over here, why would they tell 00:22:40.857 --> 00:22:42.942 - you from over there? The logic would be, 00:22:43.362 --> 00:22:48.615 - because you can't never claim this land if you from over there. If you from Africa, then your land and 00:22:48.615 --> 00:22:53.766 - your heritage is over there. You can't claim this land. But if you're from here and we tell you from 00:22:53.766 --> 00:22:58.916 - over there, then you don't really know where the fuck you from. Because when you go over there, I've 00:22:58.916 --> 00:23:04.067 - heard too many black people go to Africa, two different countries within the continent and say, them 00:23:04.067 --> 00:23:08.606 - people ain't never heard this story about no large slave trade and motherfuckers getting 00:23:09.026 --> 00:23:14.943 - called off type shit, right? You see what I'm saying? And then there are trades of black people coming 00:23:14.943 --> 00:23:20.745 - from America, going to Spain, going to other places. So these motherfuckers then lied about history, 00:23:20.745 --> 00:23:26.547 - bro. We don't even know that. And so we argue against each other. We fight about shit. And we don't, 00:23:26.547 --> 00:23:27.294 - like I said, 00:23:27.554 --> 00:23:33.902 - What our blood our community is disjointed bro. We think we Muslims we think we Christians we think 00:23:33.902 --> 00:23:40.313 - we Jews we think we Hebrews we think these Indians Because we don't know what we are. We're the only 00:23:40.313 --> 00:23:46.725 - people on the planet who are like that We adapt them near anything because there is no foundation or 00:23:46.725 --> 00:23:51.422 - shit to it to link you tonight so iris slave can always after slavery and 00:23:51.714 --> 00:23:56.805 - said, well, my people's heritage is this. This is what they used to eat. This is what they used to do. 00:23:56.805 --> 00:24:01.995 - This is what they believe. This is what they thought. This is what they, yeah, they can just reassociate 00:24:01.995 --> 00:24:07.086 - themselves and get some of that DNA and shit linked back into their fucking true heritage. They fucked 00:24:07.086 --> 00:24:10.398 - us up. They fucked us up, brother. We don't know where we're from. 00:24:10.530 --> 00:24:17.585 - especially with religion, just to go back to that. And then you dump the religion on top of it. And 00:24:17.585 --> 00:24:24.639 - you hear it. We Muslim, we Jews, we Hebrews, we Christian, we this, we that, we everything. Because 00:24:24.639 --> 00:24:31.906 - like you said, you dump the religion on it. But ultimately, the trick of that is that all of that shit 00:24:31.906 --> 00:24:39.454 - comes from the deep African and ancient histories of spiritual reality. Spirituality is spiritual reality. 00:24:39.586 --> 00:24:46.008 - just to pivot from that a little bit, just because that evolved from thinking from a religious standpoint 00:24:46.008 --> 00:24:52.067 - to what feels right to me in my spirit. You know what I'm saying? What feels right? Because I ain't 00:24:52.067 --> 00:24:58.126 - going to lie. I started reading the Bible. I feel like I'm not ignorant to the Bible. You know what 00:24:58.126 --> 00:25:04.185 - I'm saying? I started because, like I say, when I was five years old, I kind of wanted to know more 00:25:04.185 --> 00:25:09.214 - about it. So I went to a Bible vacation one time, and I started reading on my own. 00:25:09.506 --> 00:25:16.147 - The more and more I read, the more it kind of turned me off to it, you know? Because it started sounding 00:25:16.147 --> 00:25:22.661 - like Green Eggs and Ham and Dr. Seuss, you know what I'm saying? I started hearing about people living 00:25:22.661 --> 00:25:29.113 - in wells, people living until they were 05 in the years old, people walking on water, trying to water 00:25:29.113 --> 00:25:35.564 - in the wild. I started hearing about all types of shit. I'm like, hey, what's up with you? This is me 00:25:35.564 --> 00:25:39.422 - talking. I'm like, I'm serious. I started looking like, hey. 00:25:40.066 --> 00:25:45.377 - Genesis threw me off from the jump. You know what I'm saying? It took seven days, right? Let there be 00:25:45.377 --> 00:25:50.583 - light. Pow! Then you go to school. I went to school too. They told me about the Big Bang Theory and 00:25:50.583 --> 00:25:55.894 - stuff. They told me it was a hypothesis. They tested stuff and it was like boom boom. And they didn't 00:25:55.894 --> 00:26:01.517 - say nothing about let there be light. Pow! It wasn't that. You know what I'm saying? So I always questioned 00:26:01.517 --> 00:26:06.879 - the Bible. You know what I'm saying? And then I started looking like, and then you said, what happened 00:26:06.879 --> 00:26:09.118 - to black people? You know what I'm saying? 00:26:10.338 --> 00:26:16.050 - We, it might be this, you know what I'm saying? It might be this, you know what I'm saying? And then 00:26:16.050 --> 00:26:21.706 - just like, we on some of that shit, you know what I'm saying? My favorite movie, follow me on this, 00:26:21.706 --> 00:26:27.644 - my favorite movie back when I was little was Menace of Society, you know what I'm saying? Violent movie, 00:26:27.644 --> 00:26:33.300 - everybody know that, but I think it was one part in the movie where Old Dog came outside and he was 00:26:33.300 --> 00:26:37.598 - like, they came out to his, uh, King's grandparents' house and he was like, 00:26:37.954 --> 00:26:43.410 - Black people got too much damn religion as it is. Remember that part? That part always sat with me when 00:26:43.410 --> 00:26:48.709 - I was little. Because mind you, that came out when I was 93. I was in third grade, right? So I don't 00:26:48.709 --> 00:26:54.061 - know how old I was back then. But this is all while I'm all just trying to grasp what is religion and 00:26:54.061 --> 00:26:59.412 - what is this. But when he said that part, I'm like, black people got too much damn religion as it is. 00:26:59.412 --> 00:27:04.659 - I'm like, you might have a point. You know what I'm saying? I'm going to say this. I don't disagree 00:27:04.659 --> 00:27:05.918 - because ultimately what 00:27:06.274 --> 00:27:11.652 - What you're talking about is what is most valuable. And that is your personal relationship. This is 00:27:11.652 --> 00:27:17.138 - all personal to me. And that's what counts. The rest is just people talking shit. I don't give a fuck 00:27:17.138 --> 00:27:22.732 - if they the Christians, they the Muslims, they the Jews. I don't give a fuck what you're talking about. 00:27:22.732 --> 00:27:28.111 - If I don't have no personal interpersonal feeling and relation and connection to this shit and it's 00:27:28.111 --> 00:27:31.230 - doing and moving and processing through me on some level. 00:27:31.490 --> 00:27:41.718 - And I like growing up, I tried like I might. Dr. Seuss. So the spirituality is the living expression 00:27:41.718 --> 00:27:52.148 - of these things. So let me tell you. So what religion means is religion. Right. Re aligning, you know, 00:27:52.148 --> 00:28:00.350 - legion, God, whatever you realign with God. Right. But ultimately, the religions 00:28:00.930 --> 00:28:08.967 - have in general been used to, as power tools, you know what I'm saying? As social power tools to do 00:28:08.967 --> 00:28:17.245 - that, you know what I'm saying? Politics and shit. It's used to direct, you know what I'm saying? It's 00:28:17.245 --> 00:28:25.603 - used to socially engineer society. Right. Yes. And that's when I started saying, hey man, this is deep. 00:28:25.603 --> 00:28:27.934 - It's this control mechanism. 00:28:28.194 --> 00:28:35.677 - a coping mechanism, too. Yes, sir. Yes, sir. Yes, sir. Yes, sir. So so all of this is a something that 00:28:35.677 --> 00:28:42.942 - is probably argumentative for the whole fucking world to argue about. And that's in their time. But 00:28:42.942 --> 00:28:50.425 - this conversation to me is telling me that ultimately. Yeah. Ultimately, it none of that because, bro, 00:28:50.425 --> 00:28:57.182 - I'm tell you, I can see it. I was 14. I got baptized. I forced this group to baptize me. And 00:28:57.282 --> 00:29:04.269 - Then at probably 17, I started looking at the Nation of Islam. And all of this is just like you said, 00:29:04.269 --> 00:29:11.324 - our social engineering, our environment. You know what I mean? You start as a Christian because that's 00:29:11.324 --> 00:29:18.174 - what you see. That's what you know. That's the only thing that your mama was. Ain't nobody too many 00:29:18.174 --> 00:29:25.435 - people grew up with Muslim parents. I was such a follower back then because I didn't even know. I thought 00:29:25.435 --> 00:29:26.462 - I was Baptist. 00:29:26.690 --> 00:29:30.570 - You know what I'm saying? Because I've seen it all. But then I thought about it like, what? I never 00:29:30.570 --> 00:29:34.179 - knew what Baptist means. Pentecostal, all that. I was like, I never knew what Baptist means. 00:29:34.179 --> 00:29:38.060 - What are these? Right. But if somebody told me, I'm Baptist. But then I thought about it like, what 00:29:38.060 --> 00:29:41.979 - am I saying? You know what I'm saying? Right. I only said that because that's what you heard. That's 00:29:41.979 --> 00:29:46.131 - what I heard. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. Grandmama said. That's what my mama said. And then I started 00:29:46.131 --> 00:29:50.050 - calling myself a Christian at one point. Like, I'm just a Christian because I believe in Christ. You 00:29:50.050 --> 00:29:54.590 - know what I'm saying? Right. But then after a while, after I started, like I said, after I started digging deep into 00:29:55.138 --> 00:30:01.517 - you know, read more, it kind of just turned me all the way off to it. I ain't gonna lie. And just to 00:30:01.517 --> 00:30:07.896 - fast forward to when I was older, like I ended up getting, you know, sick, you know what I mean? And 00:30:07.896 --> 00:30:14.023 - I lost everything, you know what I'm saying? I dared to lost my life getting sick. And you know, 00:30:14.023 --> 00:30:20.718 - once again, I ran to the Bible, you know what I'm saying? I'm 31 at this point, you know what I'm saying? 00:30:20.718 --> 00:30:24.318 - And I'm really starting, the person I was with, she was, 00:30:25.154 --> 00:30:29.906 - so deep into the church. She knew Bible verses, she knew everything. But she, shout out to her too, 00:30:29.906 --> 00:30:34.753 - because like I said, I was sick and she took care of me and I really think she was an angel, you know 00:30:34.753 --> 00:30:39.505 - what I'm saying? You know what I'm saying? For real, she did her thing with me. But like I said, we 00:30:39.505 --> 00:30:44.256 - reading the Bible and I got questions for her, the same questions I got for the preachers I got for 00:30:44.256 --> 00:30:49.103 - her, you know what I'm saying? And she trying to break it down with me, you know what I'm saying? But 00:30:49.103 --> 00:30:50.814 - I ain't gonna lie, it kind of just, 00:30:51.330 --> 00:30:55.759 - turn me off to it, I ain't gonna lie. I'll just kind of just, at that point when I got sick, and then 00:30:55.759 --> 00:31:00.232 - I started wondering like why every time I gotta get sick, why every time I go to, I ain't been to jail 00:31:00.232 --> 00:31:04.835 - that many times, no shit, but if I was, God forbid, I'd get locked up or something, or something happened 00:31:04.835 --> 00:31:09.308 - to me, that's when I'm going to the Bible, you know what I'm saying? That's when it's like, and that's 00:31:09.308 --> 00:31:13.694 - why I say it's a coping mechanism, you know what I'm saying? Lord forbid, if a house gets shot up or 00:31:13.694 --> 00:31:18.037 - something happened, people go straight to the Bible like hey, but if you party and stuff, you ain't 00:31:18.037 --> 00:31:19.166 - thinking about the Bible. 00:31:19.330 --> 00:31:27.515 - So let me tell you how I think spirituality works in relation to religion because I don't I Know that 00:31:27.515 --> 00:31:35.781 - society in general and in black people and America and the world in general at this point is like fuck 00:31:35.781 --> 00:31:38.590 - religion You know what I'm saying? 00:31:38.786 --> 00:31:44.188 - That's to the point where I got to. Yeah, it's nothing wrong. To the point where I wanted, but I knew 00:31:44.188 --> 00:31:49.484 - it was something like that. I was like, to the point I got to, like, I came a period, like, atheist 00:31:49.484 --> 00:31:54.781 - at one point, like, I don't even want to hear about God. Like, you know, I got to that point, like, 00:31:54.781 --> 00:32:00.395 - I don't want to hear it no more. I think that's part of the process, bro. Right. My dude who I interview, 00:32:00.395 --> 00:32:05.426 - who's deeply spiritual now, went through the same process. He's still part of the atheist, uh, 00:32:05.426 --> 00:32:08.286 - little phones, you know what I'm saying? All of that. 00:32:08.674 --> 00:32:16.470 - it's part of the process because it's a personal relationship with God, right? And so one of the things 00:32:16.470 --> 00:32:24.041 - that I think is valuable that is possible, like religion has its process to lead you. If you really, 00:32:24.041 --> 00:32:31.612 - in my opinion, and I think most people who get to a certain point in their spiritual walk understand 00:32:31.612 --> 00:32:34.910 - that religion has its place in the sense of 00:32:35.746 --> 00:32:42.106 - leading you to understand something about God, right? Something about God, right? And then you start 00:32:42.106 --> 00:32:48.403 - seeing things that you don't agree with, which generally leads you to search further, right? And so 00:32:48.403 --> 00:32:54.764 - it is an avenue to open you up to recognizing that I have a spiritual relationship that is more than 00:32:54.764 --> 00:33:01.250 - what the fuck this book is telling you. And so I have to go further. You see what I'm saying? And when 00:33:01.250 --> 00:33:05.406 - you do that, you can look at it as a door opening, as an opening. 00:33:05.570 --> 00:33:13.700 - But it I'm not gonna lie. It can also be quite a challenge especially from that Western perspective 00:33:13.700 --> 00:33:22.155 - of the Christian thing telling you you're a born sinner That shit is extremely detrimental because your 00:33:22.155 --> 00:33:30.854 - mind That's what the right come on dog How you gonna do that to somebody you man for they even get started 00:33:30.854 --> 00:33:35.326 - bro Bro like How you can look at a baby and say you're 00:33:36.514 --> 00:33:43.731 - Piece of shit. You just came out. I know you're a fucking evil piece of shit. Come on How you look at 00:33:43.731 --> 00:33:50.807 - that baby and assume that's reality No, bro, somebody fucked up who said that y'all the whole world 00:33:50.807 --> 00:33:57.953 - and accepted it, bro And that's a bad thing because how long does it take for you to come from under 00:33:57.953 --> 00:34:05.241 - the religion first? You got to say You got to tell your mom and him. I don't really believe this shit. 00:34:05.241 --> 00:34:06.302 - What you what? 00:34:06.466 --> 00:34:12.129 - I'm saying it takes courage. It takes strength. It takes them. You know, I mean, right you got to be 00:34:12.129 --> 00:34:17.736 - that if you're gonna really try to be that bro, because That's what you got one life and I got time 00:34:17.736 --> 00:34:23.568 - to live enough alive with my one life. You know, I got one way I'm like, I'm gonna keep doing this like 00:34:23.568 --> 00:34:29.568 - I told you I just turned 40 I'm gonna do this for the next 20 30 40 years of my life like playing charades 00:34:29.568 --> 00:34:34.558 - for the world playing charades for the world ain't that what it seemed like it's doing I 00:34:34.818 --> 00:34:39.773 - Like y'all know y'all fake is here. Y'all don't feel nothing. Y'all ain't get no direction. You don't 00:34:39.773 --> 00:34:44.825 - know about no guidance. You don't know if you're really in line. You don't know nothing. You just doing 00:34:44.825 --> 00:34:49.877 - what the fuck they said and keeping the show up and hoping that people say, well, he seems to be a good 00:34:49.877 --> 00:34:54.881 - this, a good dad, a good Christian, Muslim, Jew, Hindu. But you know what I'm saying? You just playing 00:34:54.881 --> 00:35:00.079 - the game. But there is an actual spiritual connection that people like this and people like me are having, 00:35:00.079 --> 00:35:01.342 - bro, that you get because 00:35:01.474 --> 00:35:07.204 - You're searching. And if what they say, I don't care. So like I said, all these little quotes in these 00:35:07.204 --> 00:35:12.934 - different religions that say, you take one step toward God, he'll take two towards you. Right? Because 00:35:12.934 --> 00:35:18.553 - that's another thing. You realize a lot of things in the Bible, it do well align with what you think 00:35:18.553 --> 00:35:24.171 - in any way. You know what I'm saying? That's what I'm thinking. The Bible, it seemed to me like some 00:35:24.171 --> 00:35:29.790 - natural stuff happened in the world. Like then somebody just get ate up by a whale last week. Right? 00:35:30.658 --> 00:35:47.256 - I don't know what his name was. I don't think he was Jonah, but he definitely was eaten by a motherfucking 00:35:47.256 --> 00:35:58.270 - whale. But the Bible tell that he was in there for 30 days, 30 nights. 00:35:58.402 --> 00:36:03.443 - It was three days, but I got you right, right. Brother, I remember the first time I seen the moon turn 00:36:03.443 --> 00:36:08.386 - red. I thought the world was gonna end. I thought the moon turned to blood. I bet that happened too, 00:36:08.386 --> 00:36:13.378 - right? I think the whole Bible was stuff that probably happened, but they put a little extra sauce on 00:36:13.378 --> 00:36:18.468 - there, right? Yes, sir. And this is the thing, man. I'm gonna tell you, I've had the... So like I said, 00:36:18.468 --> 00:36:23.558 - I've had some of these experiences that I've read in these books, man, in these religious books, right? 00:36:23.558 --> 00:36:27.326 - So I've lived as a Muslim. I've lived as a Christian. I've studied damn near 00:36:27.810 --> 00:36:33.454 - probably six or seven religions deeply. And if I was to say anything seems to be most logical, it's 00:36:33.454 --> 00:36:39.324 - some shit you probably ain't never heard. It's called the Baha'i. But anyway, ultimately, I don't claim 00:36:39.324 --> 00:36:45.024 - no religion because it's just divisive at this time, right? It's just make motherfuckers divide each 00:36:45.024 --> 00:36:50.838 - other. It's just motherfuckers, oh, you believe that? Because what they think is, they don't even know 00:36:50.838 --> 00:36:56.030 - what people really believe in themselves, but if I know what your religion says about this, 00:36:56.194 --> 00:37:01.927 - Or when your religious is about that, then I can say, oh, I don't fuck with them, because they believe 00:37:01.927 --> 00:37:07.660 - this. I don't fuck with them, because they believe this. It's the vice of this. I don't talk about it. 00:37:07.660 --> 00:37:13.281 - It's the vice. It's the voice of it. And this is a thing about spirituality and religion, because we 00:37:13.281 --> 00:37:18.847 - kind of got off track. But this is good. It's beautiful. You was talking about, yeah, so one of the 00:37:18.847 --> 00:37:24.746 - things that's good about spirituality and religion is that you can get from religion a measure of control 00:37:24.746 --> 00:37:25.470 - for society. 00:37:25.634 --> 00:37:32.218 - spirituality, it frees society up. It frees the individual up from society. And so if more people were 00:37:32.218 --> 00:37:38.865 - doing spirituality, you wouldn't have the control on the society like you do. You know what I'm saying? 00:37:38.865 --> 00:37:45.257 - I'd say exactly what you're saying. Yeah, because spirituality make you feel free. I lean more into 00:37:45.257 --> 00:37:51.266 - spirituality. So I try to deprogram myself to like the rules and the fear and all everything, 00:37:51.266 --> 00:37:54.334 - the manipulation and everything that comes with 00:37:54.722 --> 00:38:00.036 - you know, the religion part is like, cause I was like, I want to believe there's something out there. 00:38:00.036 --> 00:38:05.611 - You know what I'm saying? I don't like, as far as atheist, I mean, like, no, you don't believe in nothing. 00:38:05.611 --> 00:38:10.821 - You don't say no, nothing. You know what I'm saying? I don't want to be that, you know, but I don't 00:38:10.821 --> 00:38:16.292 - want to be lied to neither. You know what I'm saying? I don't want to, you know, seem like I'm heartless 00:38:16.292 --> 00:38:21.502 - or like I'm in compassionate to people, but like I'm on my own personal spiritual thing, especially 00:38:21.502 --> 00:38:23.742 - because like my, as personally, my health, 00:38:23.874 --> 00:38:30.638 - Ain't the best, you know, and I've been going through things and that's when I was on my like my last 00:38:30.638 --> 00:38:37.336 - leg at one point that's when I really dove into the Bible, but Like I say what I saw I didn't really 00:38:37.336 --> 00:38:44.365 - I wasn't feeling it and like you say the spirituality is more how you feel and I needed to feel Connected 00:38:44.365 --> 00:38:46.686 - to something, you know Coming from 00:38:46.914 --> 00:38:53.122 - The religion science, you know. So let me tell you what they did to our people by doing what they did 00:38:53.122 --> 00:38:59.390 - socially, engineering us through all of this bullshit that they did. You know, we have this perception 00:38:59.390 --> 00:39:05.903 - that. All right, so I'll talk a minute. It's so much shit. It's almost too much to try to fucking explain, 00:39:05.903 --> 00:39:12.293 - bro. I mean, it is it can be a daunting. Experience to perceive the reality of what's been done to black 00:39:12.293 --> 00:39:14.910 - America to get them the way that they are. 00:39:15.266 --> 00:39:20.729 - You understand what I'm saying? It's sometimes too much and it'll fucking just break you down into tears, 00:39:20.729 --> 00:39:25.935 - bro, because your people won't hear you no more. They don't even want to listen no more because like 00:39:25.935 --> 00:39:31.140 - the matrix is so real. That's more real than the spiritual shit you talking about, bro. See what I'm 00:39:31.140 --> 00:39:36.294 - saying? And it's definitely real, too. And the spiritual thing is what we started from. This is our 00:39:36.294 --> 00:39:41.499 - beginning nature. This is who we are, bro. This is who our connection is. And this is the only thing 00:39:41.499 --> 00:39:43.870 - that, in my opinion, is going to save us now. 00:39:44.034 --> 00:39:49.721 - You can, like you said, detach from their religions, right? If that's what you feel you must do, please, 00:39:49.721 --> 00:39:55.192 - all of you, if you feel like you must detach from their religions, then do so necessarily. But don't 00:39:55.192 --> 00:40:00.879 - detach from God. Don't detach from spirit. Don't detach from the reality that your experience is related 00:40:00.879 --> 00:40:06.350 - to your internal self. Your internal self is your spiritual self. The fact that you have dreams, the 00:40:06.350 --> 00:40:12.254 - fact that you wake up, you know what I mean? Come on, man. You can feel me staring at you across the street. 00:40:14.210 --> 00:40:20.243 - What the fuck is that? We all connected in spirit one way or another, whether we understand it or not. 00:40:20.243 --> 00:40:26.277 - And the trick in the trap is that our mind is so trapped in survival, bro. That's what they put on us. 00:40:26.277 --> 00:40:32.135 - That's what that was the hardest thing that they put on us. Survival, survival, survival, survival, 00:40:32.135 --> 00:40:38.402 - survival. So you can never imagine a future or a great reality of what the possibility of why you possibly 00:40:38.402 --> 00:40:41.214 - here. You don't even get time to think of that. 00:40:41.378 --> 00:40:47.133 - You know I'm saying being a black man in America you got time to be sitting around fantasy about no 00:40:47.133 --> 00:40:52.946 - motherfucking vision about who you might want to be and that is the trick that is the ultimate trick 00:40:52.946 --> 00:40:58.875 - because Just like the matrix the movie The goal is to keep you thinking that you can't do nothing that 00:40:58.875 --> 00:41:05.206 - you you have no power You are literally now just the battery for another motherfuckers company But ultimately 00:41:05.206 --> 00:41:10.846 - you go inside bro, and we got so many like you said you got to break down the program you said it 00:41:11.490 --> 00:41:19.000 - You got to take the programming out. And that shit is a process. It hurt. You go through sadness, 00:41:19.000 --> 00:41:26.894 - you cry, you feel shit. You feel a lot. You process a lot of fucking feelings going through that, bro. 00:41:26.894 --> 00:41:34.557 - And ultimately, but it opens you up on shit where you feel more shit than the average cat. And when 00:41:34.557 --> 00:41:37.086 - you do that, you understand that 00:41:37.378 --> 00:41:42.565 - It's bigger than just you and you so so so it's so it's like this every month fuck I come in contact 00:41:42.565 --> 00:41:47.701 - with I had this vision in my mind now that I'm like an orange or or a lemon like you walk by orange 00:41:47.701 --> 00:41:52.940 - or a limit you can smell that mother God energy coming off me. That's my that's how I walk. That's my 00:41:52.940 --> 00:41:58.282 - thinking right? So, you know I'm saying that's the programming you have to reprogram your mind to think 00:41:58.282 --> 00:42:03.418 - what you think about yourself Versus what they told you to think about yourself and we have to that 00:42:03.418 --> 00:42:06.910 - shit ain't gonna do a religion man. That got to do with you and God 00:42:08.258 --> 00:42:13.592 - That's that cut all religions out and directly the spirit, bro. I'm talking to you. I don't what the 00:42:13.592 --> 00:42:19.137 - fuck I'm doing here I don't know who I am out You sense and it got to go to that level and motherfuckers 00:42:19.137 --> 00:42:24.577 - got to be comfortable saying I'm telling you where I had to go to that level I went to the level where 00:42:24.577 --> 00:42:30.069 - I said I was ready to check out I was ready to hand full of pills or pop to put you know, pull out that 00:42:30.069 --> 00:42:35.614 - thing. It's over. I'm out this month I've been there I've been there bro cry like a baby snot bubbles. I 00:42:35.938 --> 00:42:45.837 - I was at the mosque and get in front of people ain't give a fuck. I'm right. You ever been in the mosque? 00:42:45.837 --> 00:42:55.269 - You seen that? You seen Malcolm X? They pray shoulder to shoulder. I'm in that crowd. Right. I ain't 00:42:55.269 --> 00:43:01.246 - come here for y'all. This for real. It's the real relationship. 00:43:03.298 --> 00:43:08.320 - man, I'm gonna tell you, it's a miracle. A miracle happened. I swear to God, bro. I swear to God, a 00:43:08.320 --> 00:43:13.441 - miracle happened. That happened, and bro, that happened in NAP, bro. That happened in NAP. It was. It 00:43:13.441 --> 00:43:18.764 - was that. It was at that bottom. It was at the bottom. Mike Brown, what the fuck I'm doing here? I didn't 00:43:18.764 --> 00:43:23.836 - do everything I thought I was supposed to do. I'm trying to do right, but let me tell you what black 00:43:23.836 --> 00:43:25.694 - folks got to do first. Just be good. 00:43:26.146 --> 00:43:31.174 - You got to just be good. Just got to be righteous and stop nickel slicking and let me rob him for $5 00:43:31.174 --> 00:43:36.153 - and get this extra here and do the did you understand I'm saying the nickel slick nature that we've 00:43:36.153 --> 00:43:41.181 - built up because we lived in poverty and under the bottom and been Scraping and scurrying and living 00:43:41.181 --> 00:43:46.308 - at the bottom of the fucking underbelly of the beast. That's where we were raised from We are from the 00:43:46.308 --> 00:43:51.486 - underbelly of the beast. So our mentality was hustle sneak, whatever the fuck I gotta do but ultimately 00:43:51.746 --> 00:43:58.365 - When you realize you have spiritual nature, then you gotta do what's right, regardless of what the fuck. 00:43:58.365 --> 00:44:04.858 - And then you gotta trust that your right is gonna lead to what's right. Sometimes it takes you through 00:44:04.858 --> 00:44:11.413 - harder shit, but when you go through that harder shit, it's actually making you stronger in a spiritual 00:44:11.413 --> 00:44:17.843 - aspect of yourself. I apply faith here, and it showed on the other side when I came through the other 00:44:17.843 --> 00:44:21.310 - side. I applied, you know, some other spiritual aspect 00:44:21.602 --> 00:44:27.084 - to this fucking problem versus saying, fuck that, I'm about to do this. You see what I'm saying? We 00:44:27.084 --> 00:44:32.565 - can't keep resulting to fuck that I'm about to do this, because that's what the world say. But your 00:44:32.565 --> 00:44:38.047 - spirit know that ain't what's right. You know it, motherfucker. And if you keep doing it, you ain't 00:44:38.047 --> 00:44:43.309 - going to never be in a line to be able to hear no more, bro. That's what the fuck we got to do. 00:44:43.309 --> 00:44:48.955 - Just do right, man. Just do right again. If we just do right again and do good, we know that. We don't 00:44:48.955 --> 00:44:50.654 - need no books to tell us that. 00:44:51.042 --> 00:44:55.762 - You know what good is, you know it right here. Treat your brother like you want to be treated. Treat 00:44:55.762 --> 00:45:00.574 - your mother like you want to be treated. Treat that older woman like you want your mama to be treated. 00:45:00.574 --> 00:45:05.387 - You understand what I'm saying? All of these things, if we just go back to the fucking basics of being 00:45:05.387 --> 00:45:10.200 - good people, then we can harmonize with that again, and then you can listen to that God person in you. 00:45:10.200 --> 00:45:14.640 - Because it's in there. It's in there. But we done covered it up with layers of I'm a gangster, 00:45:14.640 --> 00:45:19.406 - I'm a pimp, I'm a thug, I'm a creep, I'm a blood, I'm a black stone, I'm a gangster this, I'm a dick. 00:45:19.406 --> 00:45:20.574 - You see what I'm saying? 00:45:20.898 --> 00:45:26.043 - All of these layers of bullshit. And what you said, we got to deprogram that shit. Right. It get to 00:45:26.043 --> 00:45:31.187 - a point where I was like, do you think it better ever happen? I know it ain't going to happen while 00:45:31.187 --> 00:45:36.332 - we alive. Yes, it's going to happen. Let me tell you how it's going to happen. It's going to happen 00:45:36.332 --> 00:45:41.528 - while we alive. Me and you having a conversation right now. Let me tell you why it's going to happen 00:45:41.528 --> 00:45:46.879 - while we alive. Because this got to spread. What we going to do, what is going to happen is we're going 00:45:46.879 --> 00:45:48.062 - to teach the children. 00:45:48.834 --> 00:45:54.237 - Right. That is the trick. Because generational courses is what you talking about. We got to like deprogram 00:45:54.237 --> 00:45:59.338 - because this is dope. Like I said, this is before us. Oh, yes. It generates the kids. The break. The 00:45:59.338 --> 00:46:04.590 - break is to teach the kids the highest shit we know. And let me tell you why it's going to work because 00:46:04.590 --> 00:46:09.892 - they've already proven that a motherfucking baby now, not a baby baby, but I'm saying these youth, these 00:46:09.892 --> 00:46:14.942 - very young children can learn four or five languages by the time they eight years old. Right. Yeah. 00:46:16.098 --> 00:46:21.260 - If you can learn five languages by the time you're eight years old, you can learn science. You can learn 00:46:21.260 --> 00:46:26.470 - spirituality. You can learn all of these plants as nature and medicine and food. You see what I'm saying? 00:46:26.470 --> 00:46:31.533 - We forgot our environment. We forgot that we're human and part of the earth. So we got medicine in all 00:46:31.533 --> 00:46:36.449 - of these plants. We ain't gotta go no doctor. We got food in all these plants. We got nutrients. We 00:46:36.449 --> 00:46:41.365 - got health and all of these things that are right around us that we totally forgot about. But if we 00:46:41.365 --> 00:46:45.150 - got people like Dr. Yaki, you know who Yaki is? We got people like Dr. Yaki. 00:46:45.282 --> 00:46:50.849 - He know the herbs. It's another brother name, uh, what's his name? Uh, Katie, the arch degree, Dr. Sebi's 00:46:50.849 --> 00:46:56.154 - people, right? He know the urge, teach it to the babies. They going to be doctors because they don't 00:46:56.154 --> 00:47:01.406 - understand the human body because they've learned that part. You see what I'm saying? All you gotta 00:47:01.406 --> 00:47:06.711 - do is take it through the first through the eighth grade, then babies to learn all of the systems of 00:47:06.711 --> 00:47:12.068 - the human body by the eighth grade. They smart as a doctor. Then you didn't tell them the herbs. They 00:47:12.068 --> 00:47:13.854 - know where herbs fit what system. 00:47:14.466 --> 00:47:20.164 - By the time they 20 ain't no more ain't no more. He ain't no more need for doctors You see what I'm 00:47:20.164 --> 00:47:25.919 - saying? We can change this shit based on what we believe But if they tell us niggas to do man niggas 00:47:25.919 --> 00:47:31.673 - divided niggas that you I'm saying We can change shit by what we believe the matrix is fucking real, 00:47:31.673 --> 00:47:37.599 - bro. That movie is real. You are fucking Leo, right? I'll say we can like that too, but it's just about 00:47:37.599 --> 00:47:43.582 - to be doctors in the face Well, I'll say we take it back to the straight ground level like what you said 00:47:43.714 --> 00:47:49.889 - teach people how, teach the kids to be just good people. You know what I'm saying? Like what you're 00:47:49.889 --> 00:47:56.374 - saying, all the, don't, don't, don't these nickel, what you, what you call them? All of that, man. Yeah, 00:47:56.374 --> 00:48:02.611 - hustling and what they call it, they call it, they got cool names for it. Shiesty, you know what I'm 00:48:02.611 --> 00:48:08.971 - saying? Yeah, shiesty, you know what I'm saying? Swindlers, whatever, what that way? It's another word 00:48:08.971 --> 00:48:12.862 - they got for it. Finesse, that's it. That's the cool word for, 00:48:13.154 --> 00:48:19.560 - being off balance in your spirit. Finesse. Finesse. That's the cool word for that. Finesse the shit 00:48:19.560 --> 00:48:26.286 - out there. Suck MC. That ain't cool, bro. That's not for you. You see what I'm saying? Yeah. If we don't 00:48:26.286 --> 00:48:32.692 - get back to the basics of just being good, righteous hearted people, we ain't going to get where we 00:48:32.692 --> 00:48:39.291 - supposed to go. So that is true. That is true. It's a choice. But that basic shit, just what you said, 00:48:39.291 --> 00:48:42.878 - bro, if we don't start just being basically good again, 00:48:43.266 --> 00:48:47.743 - You know what I'm saying? If you see an old lady struggling, help her, motherfucker. When you want a 00:48:47.743 --> 00:48:52.219 - mother to help your grandmama, when you want a mother to help your mama, when you want, you see what 00:48:52.219 --> 00:48:56.740 - I'm saying? Be that. Come on, dog. You be feeling it. You be feeling it in yourself. Sometimes you be 00:48:56.740 --> 00:49:01.216 - walking by a mother and be like, man, I don't even talk to you. She's a lady, but this will make eye 00:49:01.216 --> 00:49:05.649 - contact and say what's up to you, to my brother. Hey, yeah, yeah, yeah. You don't know me. Man, I'm 00:49:05.649 --> 00:49:09.150 - going to tell you, I'm from Detroit, bro, so I remember a whole fucking season 00:49:09.826 --> 00:49:16.607 - I'm telling you, bro, I saw this shit fall apart. I saw the whole shit fall apart. I was born in 73. 00:49:16.607 --> 00:49:23.456 - In 83, I was 10 years old. So I had a consciousness by then. You know what I'm saying? So I saw crack 00:49:23.456 --> 00:49:30.439 - come. I saw the world in my community before crack. I saw the motherfucking world in my community after 00:49:30.439 --> 00:49:37.086 - crack. So I've seen the down, the decline of our people. I've lived through it. And so, bro, yeah. 00:49:37.762 --> 00:49:43.346 - It is a daunting task. It's a near impossible task, but it ain't impossible because it's not really 00:49:43.346 --> 00:49:48.930 - your task. All you got to do is certain things. Like, like I was talking to my cat, like, you know, 00:49:48.930 --> 00:49:55.072 - I, he was talking about how his different cats, we've got different roles in society and for our spirituality 00:49:55.072 --> 00:50:00.768 - and life and shit like that. Like if a motherfucker put a hurdle in front of you, don't automatically 00:50:00.768 --> 00:50:04.062 - mean he's stopping you or trying to stop you. He's saying, 00:50:04.674 --> 00:50:10.498 - in the spiritual realm, I believe you can jump over this. Get your ass up over it. You're tougher than 00:50:10.498 --> 00:50:16.265 - you believe. So you might see him in this world as an enemy. You understand what I'm saying? But when 00:50:16.265 --> 00:50:22.089 - you overcome it, you'd be like, if that motherfucker never came along, I'd never be this motherfucker. 00:50:22.089 --> 00:50:27.743 - You see? Yes. So these are the things that we got to remember when we do these things. So I'm going 00:50:27.743 --> 00:50:33.567 - to be good instead of getting for that $200 because I know I need to get this rent. I'm going to trust 00:50:33.567 --> 00:50:34.302 - that spirit. 00:50:34.434 --> 00:50:40.556 - going to say, it's going to be another answer, bro. Don't robbing. Don't robbing. We got to trust that. 00:50:40.556 --> 00:50:46.561 - Right. And so that ain't got nothing to do with religion. They got to do with you and God. Right. The 00:50:46.561 --> 00:50:52.684 - great spirit, the mother, father spirit, whatever you want to call it. You can call it Jah, Allah, God, 00:50:52.684 --> 00:50:58.924 - universe. You can call it whatever you want to call it. But it's your personal motherfucking relationship 00:50:58.924 --> 00:51:04.222 - winning, bro. And I'm going to tell you why I know it's real, because you are individual. 00:51:04.386 --> 00:51:11.357 - that has life in you, and that motherfucking life is here to be expressed just like the plants and the 00:51:11.357 --> 00:51:18.260 - animals, bro. Everything shows in nature to reach its full potential. Do we reach our full potential? 00:51:18.260 --> 00:51:25.163 - How many motherfuckers in the world we know didn't, dog? I say 95% of the fucking planet didn't reach 00:51:25.163 --> 00:51:31.998 - their full potential, bro. Ain't that sad? Damn! Damn! I wanna reach mine, you know what I'm saying? 00:51:32.098 --> 00:51:38.690 - I want this brother to reach his I want everybody that's alive in my time to hear my motherfucking voice 00:51:38.690 --> 00:51:44.968 - To reach a full potential because I believe the shit that comes from that is part of the kingdom on 00:51:44.968 --> 00:51:51.371 - earth, bro I feel like people as well. What is God's will on earth? And I know I'm talking a lot man, 00:51:51.371 --> 00:51:57.712 - but I just feel like this is part of it Yeah, I Feel like people ask what is God's will on earth and 00:51:57.712 --> 00:52:01.918 - God's will on earth is that every being reaches its full potential 00:52:02.850 --> 00:52:09.750 - Society said, you're a piece of shit when you're born. So it makes it very hard for you to reach your 00:52:09.750 --> 00:52:16.718 - full potential with that concept sitting in the back of your mind. Because even if your parents didn't 00:52:16.718 --> 00:52:23.618 - teach you that, the overall ether in the atmosphere of America and the West is that we're all sinners 00:52:23.618 --> 00:52:30.450 - from birth. That's the national religions of these societies in general. Yes. And that's a hell of a 00:52:30.450 --> 00:52:31.262 - fight, bro. 00:52:31.458 --> 00:52:37.499 - So yeah, we, you know, it's a hell of a perspective to start from this is, you know what I mean? But 00:52:37.499 --> 00:52:43.599 - ultimately your goal is to reach a full potential. And so, like I said, me talking about all of these 00:52:43.599 --> 00:52:49.819 - things and spirituality is because people need to understand that that is relevant, bro. And you don't, 00:52:49.819 --> 00:52:55.980 - you got to have a personal relationship. You got to fill it in yourself and cry about it and say, dog, 00:52:55.980 --> 00:53:00.286 - I know I'm here for a reason. I don't know what the fuck the reason is. 00:53:00.994 --> 00:53:10.114 - You gonna either tell me or I ain't gonna figure it out. So you ask what happened, man. A homeless man 00:53:10.114 --> 00:53:19.146 - walked up on me and said, you asked Allah while you were here. This is a homeless man asked you that? 00:53:19.146 --> 00:53:28.798 - Walked up on me and said that. And he said, I've been looking for you for years. What did he say after that? 00:53:29.250 --> 00:53:36.301 - Bro, it's a whole, man, that man hung out with me probably six to eight years straight up. Yes. Yeah. 00:53:36.301 --> 00:53:43.352 - His name was Mr. Spinner. Okay. I got videos on here. I've talked about it on my other channel. Yeah. 00:53:43.352 --> 00:53:50.264 - Yeah. So my shit was a miracle. Right. It was. And that's what I'm saying. It was crazy because yo, 00:53:50.264 --> 00:53:57.246 - I prayed this shit. So, so we go to the mosque on Friday. I'm crying like a baby Friday one o'clock. 00:53:58.626 --> 00:54:03.849 - And I'm working for this company that had played me. So like I said, I'm wearing a suit and tie in the 00:54:03.849 --> 00:54:08.921 - hole now. Doing all of this shit, jump through the hoops, doing whatever you're supposed to do. And 00:54:08.921 --> 00:54:13.992 - I'm not feeling like I'm winning in no kind of way. I'm losing, in fact. I feel fucked for the same 00:54:13.992 --> 00:54:19.317 - life I want. You know what I'm saying? So I'm like, fuck this. Yeah, so after I cried and prayed instead 00:54:19.317 --> 00:54:20.382 - of taking the pills, 00:54:21.666 --> 00:54:26.926 - Like I said, in the prayer, I was like, man, I didn't ask to come here. I don't know what the fuck you 00:54:26.926 --> 00:54:32.135 - wanted when you made me. I didn't make me. I don't know what the hell is going on. I don't, you know, 00:54:32.135 --> 00:54:37.395 - I ain't digging this shit. You ain't gonna tell me why I'm here. Don't say shit about how I leave. You 00:54:37.395 --> 00:54:42.553 - know what I'm saying? Don't say nothing about how I walk through this mother or how I leave. You not 00:54:42.553 --> 00:54:47.762 - gonna tell me why I'm here. And that's what happened in them prayers. And then on Sunday night about, 00:54:47.762 --> 00:54:50.622 - well, Sunday morning, I guess about two in the morning, 00:54:51.618 --> 00:54:57.826 - Homeless man walked up on me in downtown Meridian across at this place called home with sweets. I was 00:54:57.826 --> 00:55:03.911 - in front of it and homeless man walked up. I'm trying to sell me a watch and I had no money because 00:55:03.911 --> 00:55:09.997 - that was one of the reasons I was in there crying because my finances was backwards. Everything was 00:55:09.997 --> 00:55:16.266 - fucked up. I'm like, bro, I ain't got no money. I want to play you on the watch. He he and he had like 00:55:16.266 --> 00:55:20.830 - a speech impediment to those part of talk kind of like a baby. But anyway, 00:55:21.346 --> 00:55:26.962 - He trying to sell me to watch and it's a nice ass pocket watch on the chain. I still got it It's here. 00:55:26.962 --> 00:55:32.468 - I'll show it to you one day. But anyway, hey, uh I'm like bro. That's a nice ass watch. I don't want 00:55:32.468 --> 00:55:37.920 - to play you on the motherfucker It's worth more than what I got. He like bro. Just give me what you 00:55:37.920 --> 00:55:43.372 - got type shit. I gave him $20 He give me to watch when I take the watch he like I'm honored to meet 00:55:43.372 --> 00:55:47.134 - you. I'm honored to be in your present I've been looking for you for 00:55:47.426 --> 00:55:54.056 - year for three years or six years. I've been looking for you some, you know, just, just start saying 00:55:54.056 --> 00:56:00.752 - whole different shit. We talking about a watch next night to mom. I'm honored to be in your presence. 00:56:00.752 --> 00:56:07.448 - I started calling me boss and all this shit. You know what I'm saying? And it was like, you know, uh, 00:56:07.448 --> 00:56:14.144 - uh, you, you asked, you asked a lot while you was here and not there. I got like, like, you know what 00:56:14.144 --> 00:56:15.326 - I'm saying? Like, 00:56:16.034 --> 00:56:25.053 - Like I ain't said it's just like when he said and I'm looking at him like Like I'm just staring at him 00:56:25.053 --> 00:56:33.809 - and he looking at me he like He said it's like you watching the movie, huh boss? Bro, I had to lean 00:56:33.809 --> 00:56:42.565 - on the building like Like cuz it was when he said this shit. I was so fucking tripping. It was like 00:56:42.565 --> 00:56:43.966 - this is a movie 00:56:44.066 --> 00:56:51.117 - And he fucking said out his mouth, bro. He said like watching a movie help off. Oh shit Lay on the building 00:56:51.117 --> 00:56:57.907 - about to fall down For real, bro. That's what happened to me and it was this is because it was sincere, 00:56:57.907 --> 00:57:03.847 - bro I didn't ask to come here. I hate this matrix, bro. I hate this whole setup I hate the 00:57:03.847 --> 00:57:10.507 - whole motherfucking setup so I feel like if I'm here and you got me in this fucked-up ass matrix that 00:57:10.507 --> 00:57:13.118 - I call You know America that we live in 00:57:13.634 --> 00:57:20.075 - The only reason you can have me here is to change. I'm here to change. Ain't no motherfucking way I'm 00:57:20.075 --> 00:57:26.389 - supposed to fit into this shit nowhere. I'm not supposed to assimilate because integration has been 00:57:26.389 --> 00:57:32.766 - proven to be assimilation. It didn't solve a fucking thing for us. It created worse problems for us. 00:57:32.766 --> 00:57:37.502 - Okay, the difference between integration and assimilation. Assimilation is 00:57:37.730 --> 00:57:45.177 - I need to act like white people. I need to act like a white male in order to be accepted in this society. 00:57:45.177 --> 00:57:52.202 - I need to tone down my energy. I need to shave my beard. I need to, you understand what I'm saying? 00:57:52.202 --> 00:57:59.579 - And that shit causes cognitive dissonance and I will not accept it. I will not. I'll fucking die a broke 00:57:59.579 --> 00:58:07.166 - poor man. If I have to accept the matrix in order to fucking be who I am in this world, I will not do that. 00:58:07.298 --> 00:58:13.216 - I had to go to God, bro. You're gonna have to tell me what's up, because I ain't eating that shit. I'm 00:58:13.216 --> 00:58:19.019 - not eating that shit, bro. I can't do that shit. You know what I'm saying? You're gonna have to give 00:58:19.019 --> 00:58:24.879 - me some real, real shit, because I'm not eating this shit, homie. This is not the pie that I came for 00:58:24.879 --> 00:58:30.739 - this motherfucker to have, man. This is not the cake I want. And you're gonna have to tell me why I'm 00:58:30.739 --> 00:58:36.542 - here, or we're gonna have a problem. And people say, oh, he's so talking so disrespectful about God. 00:58:38.946 --> 00:58:50.299 - No, bro. It's the level of reality that my life was at my story Like I'm even playing like I've had 00:58:50.299 --> 00:59:01.766 - experiences like what I just told you that miracle that motherfucker Walked up on me and said that's 00:59:01.766 --> 00:59:07.102 - a miracle to me, bro. That's a fucking miracle 00:59:07.330 --> 00:59:12.481 - Happened in my life, but I'm gonna tell you this day bro when I pray 80% of the time I am praying for 00:59:12.481 --> 00:59:17.632 - even a better connection. That's all I asked for I could look dog I don't care about these religions. 00:59:17.632 --> 00:59:22.683 - I care about my connection to you Talk, let me if mother you talk somebody in this book You talk to 00:59:22.683 --> 00:59:27.783 - any of you mother in this book what I gotta do to get talked to you, too I want to talk to I want to 00:59:27.783 --> 00:59:33.086 - know I want to hear I want to I'm tired of playing blues clues figuring out what God talking to me about 00:59:36.226 --> 00:59:42.789 - I need to feel it sir I need to feel it and know that it's you and not be confused because now how I 00:59:42.789 --> 00:59:49.287 - make my decisions, bro I might pray on some shit. I might meditate on some shit and then after I've 00:59:49.287 --> 00:59:55.915 - made a decision about it I don't have I'm honestly this is for years. I don't have no wondering about 00:59:55.915 --> 01:00:02.802 - did I make the right decision? That shit is rare now, you know, I'm saying like after you make a decision 01:00:02.802 --> 01:00:03.582 - you be like 01:00:04.706 --> 01:00:10.177 - Yeah, sir. Don't make that decision unless you gonna stand on it. Yeah, sure. Message to that story. 01:00:10.177 --> 01:00:15.756 - You know what I mean? Yeah. But that is the base, bro. Our people just gotta be right again, bro. Just 01:00:15.756 --> 01:00:21.226 - and and and I understand how we got like that. You ain't got shit. You live in the the underbelly of 01:00:21.226 --> 01:00:26.751 - the belly of the beast, baby. Right. Shit. What's the if we if we come from that, what's the sense of 01:00:26.751 --> 01:00:32.222 - still chopping each other down? We supposed to be building with one another. Yes, sir. You know what 01:00:32.222 --> 01:00:34.334 - I'm saying? So, I'll fill you on that. 01:00:34.434 --> 01:00:39.894 - Yeah, sure. And that's where it's going to start. Because see, see, this is what we talk about. We talk 01:00:39.894 --> 01:00:45.144 - about spirituality. So there is a voice inside to tell motherfuckers, right, wrong, good, bad dude. 01:00:45.144 --> 01:00:50.498 - I believe we born with that. You know how to do, right? You know what I'm saying? That's basic ground 01:00:50.498 --> 01:00:56.011 - level. You know what I'm saying? I believe you born knowing what to do, right? You know what I'm saying? 01:00:56.011 --> 01:01:00.158 - This is in order what you choose to do. And you feel when you do wrong, right? 01:01:00.290 --> 01:01:06.201 - You feel it inside, you know. That's what I realized like going back to the Ten Commandments. That was 01:01:06.201 --> 01:01:12.169 - like some base level like stuff that you're supposed to know already, balance out now still. Of course, 01:01:12.169 --> 01:01:17.908 - we that man stuff alone. So let me tell you where I've heard this argument. We talk about the black 01:01:17.908 --> 01:01:23.762 - community. I've heard this argument. We never needed the Ten Commandments. We had that. We knew that. 01:01:23.762 --> 01:01:29.214 - That's our nature. We are the soul people. Soul brother number one, all of that. We knew that. 01:01:29.570 --> 01:01:37.897 - The other people who were controlling us who enslaved us needed that book because they did not know 01:01:37.897 --> 01:01:46.308 - how to act you mainly You see what I'm saying? I said that shit basic But inhumane motherfucker What 01:01:46.308 --> 01:01:54.718 - that Bible card they say it's called basic instruction before leaving earth You need some more water 01:01:54.914 --> 01:02:01.400 - Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Are we good? You're good. We're gonna do this all live on camera. Good. 01:02:01.400 --> 01:02:07.949 - Good. But yeah, that's real talk. So, all of these are conversations that I've been having since I was 01:02:07.949 --> 01:02:14.371 - a young man, bro. 17 years old. Right. And you know, God know that when a man really looking for his 01:02:14.371 --> 01:02:20.920 - his connection to him, it don't matter where he come through. You know what I'm saying? He looking for 01:02:20.920 --> 01:02:24.862 - me and if he really looking for me, God know that that inside 01:02:25.346 --> 01:02:31.037 - That's true. You see what I'm saying? So it don't matter what the world see or believe or think or how 01:02:31.037 --> 01:02:36.673 - you get there or what approach you take. In fact, fuck them. Because all they out there is doing, the 01:02:36.673 --> 01:02:42.364 - whole world is outside of you damn near as a projection to judge you so you can have strength to prove 01:02:42.364 --> 01:02:48.000 - your real connection to God. What you really believe in. What they talk about or what your connection 01:02:48.000 --> 01:02:53.581 - is to what he told you. And that's what I'm saying. And that's what I'm saying. When I say told you, 01:02:53.581 --> 01:02:54.686 - it's what you feel. 01:02:55.298 --> 01:03:01.612 - When you ask about some shit and you get an answer that's inside, and you say, man, I got this, you 01:03:01.612 --> 01:03:07.799 - know what I'm saying? And you go talk to a motherfucker outside of your friend, a family, a mama, 01:03:07.799 --> 01:03:14.428 - a girl, and they don't vibe with it. And they don't vibe with it. That's where it comes in. That's where 01:03:14.428 --> 01:03:20.931 - the real challenge of your relationship with God comes in. Because is your relationship with your girl 01:03:20.931 --> 01:03:23.646 - more important? You gonna accommodate her? 01:03:24.130 --> 01:03:30.108 - You're gonna accommodate your mama. I'm gonna accommodate big homie You know I'm saying whoever you 01:03:30.108 --> 01:03:36.325 - see I'm saying or is you gonna you already know what God told you but they said And now you adjust this 01:03:36.325 --> 01:03:42.601 - shit You adjust this shit because you already know what God said But you wouldn't talk to a motherfucker 01:03:42.601 --> 01:03:48.639 - instead of just eating it using that energy and moving forward You wouldn't ask another motherfucker 01:03:48.639 --> 01:03:50.014 - who God didn't talk to 01:03:51.042 --> 01:03:56.726 - Who God ain't directing in your life, your path is your path. It ain't they motherfucking path. So they 01:03:56.726 --> 01:04:02.464 - might not have no energy toward the shit you talking about. And now you're like, damn, should I do that? 01:04:02.464 --> 01:04:08.039 - When God had already told you, but you went and took it to a motherfucker. You want to analyze it and 01:04:08.039 --> 01:04:13.558 - do two plus two. Well, if this happens and that happens and this happens and that happens, well, let 01:04:13.558 --> 01:04:19.297 - me not do that. And that's where we lose, bro. And it's because we can't trust that voice inside because 01:04:19.297 --> 01:04:20.062 - who we being. 01:04:21.378 --> 01:04:26.772 - That's why I say it start with just being good again. Because if you're not going to be good again, 01:04:26.772 --> 01:04:32.273 - you can't trust that voice. Because that nigga like, get that nigga. Know what I'm saying? That nigga 01:04:32.273 --> 01:04:37.721 - don't know. You know what I'm saying? You getting that voice. The bad guys still get that voice. You 01:04:37.721 --> 01:04:43.330 - understand what I'm saying? The righteous, that's the very beginning. So that's what I'm talking about. 01:04:43.330 --> 01:04:48.832 - That voice, right? Listening to that voice. So if your voice still telling you. All right. Well, then 01:04:48.832 --> 01:04:50.558 - you understand where you're at. 01:04:50.818 --> 01:04:56.300 - But then the other voices tell you, hey man, you know that you, hey bro, hey. And so that's the thing. 01:04:56.300 --> 01:05:01.676 - You got them voices, man. And it's who you listen to. And your mama wanted the voices. You know what 01:05:01.676 --> 01:05:06.999 - I'm saying? All these outside voices. But you know what your internal self's saying. Now, if you're 01:05:06.999 --> 01:05:12.321 - willing to walk right on that, then don't expect nothing to step forward towards you. That's what I 01:05:12.321 --> 01:05:17.644 - say. So you gotta take one step toward him and take two towards you. Now, the thing, I'm sorry, and 01:05:17.644 --> 01:05:19.134 - I know I'm going overboard. 01:05:20.354 --> 01:05:26.072 - The matter of how you hear God, that's the question, right? How do you know he fucking talking to you? 01:05:26.072 --> 01:05:31.624 - You asked the question. Now you sitting in the universe waiting on an answer from God. How the fuck 01:05:31.624 --> 01:05:37.398 - you gonna know that's true? How you know that's him? Ain't that ain't that important? Is that important 01:05:37.398 --> 01:05:43.172 - to talk about? But that's the thing when I'm talking about like when my belief started being like, like 01:05:43.172 --> 01:05:48.446 - when you talk like what I got to get him to the point like what God, you know what I'm saying? 01:05:48.866 --> 01:05:54.839 - Where is my weight? No, you know from and from who you know says like I got to that point It's like 01:05:54.839 --> 01:06:01.051 - I ain't even sitting there waiting on those sides. No words like I'm You know just go off. I don't know 01:06:01.051 --> 01:06:07.263 - you don't sound rough. That's what I'm searching for. You know, this is what I'm for the tip the reason 01:06:07.263 --> 01:06:13.355 - that we're having this conversation is because How like like I said, this is for cats who ain't never 01:06:13.355 --> 01:06:15.326 - stepped into spirituality almost 01:06:16.066 --> 01:06:25.795 - Right cats this so so me and your conversation is gonna hit other motherfuckers in a different way, 01:06:25.795 --> 01:06:35.718 - right? so First you got to stop being a bad guy, right? They'll get out proud of your crimes proud of 01:06:35.718 --> 01:06:44.766 - the negative So so the question after that is okay. All right now I'm gonna just be good and 01:06:44.930 --> 01:06:49.724 - Then that mean trust God, right? Where the fuck is God? Who is God? We ain't talking about no religion. 01:06:49.724 --> 01:06:54.425 - We ain't talking about none of that. You can name what you want to. That's why I say you can call him 01:06:54.425 --> 01:06:59.311 - universe. You can call him mother God. You can call him father God. You can call him great spirit. That's 01:06:59.311 --> 01:07:03.966 - what the Indian motherfuckers call him. You know what I'm saying? You can call him universe. You can 01:07:03.966 --> 01:07:08.667 - call it the divine matrix. You can call it whatever the fuck you want to call it. But know that there 01:07:08.667 --> 01:07:13.369 - is a power that decided for you to be in existence. Do you believe that's true? You in existence. How 01:07:13.369 --> 01:07:14.014 - you get here? 01:07:14.178 --> 01:07:19.397 - If you, if you're willing to believe that except that, right. Then you got to be able to understand 01:07:19.397 --> 01:07:24.617 - that this motherfucker can hear you somehow or, or interact with you somehow. Right. And so what is 01:07:24.617 --> 01:07:29.940 - a prayer? What is the meditation? What is these kinds of things that motherfuckers talk about praying 01:07:29.940 --> 01:07:35.264 - and hearing God's voice and listening and all of this shit. So it's really not hearing all the always 01:07:35.264 --> 01:07:40.588 - sometime it is here, but how can you hear at, I'm going to tell you, this is a test. Please, everyone 01:07:40.588 --> 01:07:42.206 - try this motherfucker at home. 01:07:42.466 --> 01:07:47.511 - Please try this out. Like they say, please don't try this at home. Please try this at home, okay? This 01:07:47.511 --> 01:07:52.458 - is a test. That's how you test God. They say test the spirit. If you really want to know how to test 01:07:52.458 --> 01:07:57.404 - God, go alone. Go away from everybody where you know ain't a motherfucker heard a thing you thinking 01:07:57.404 --> 01:08:02.547 - or saying or crying or whatever you got going on in you this deep, right? It's some deep shit. Everybody 01:08:02.547 --> 01:08:07.494 - got some deep shit. We ain't figured it out. We want to, your mama didn't do right. Something to cry 01:08:07.494 --> 01:08:09.502 - about. Something that's that level deep. 01:08:09.922 --> 01:08:15.671 - That's all I'm saying to take it to the deepest level you can take it to. Cause you're going to get 01:08:15.671 --> 01:08:21.593 - an answer that will convince you of what the fuck is true about God and his existence and how he can't 01:08:21.593 --> 01:08:27.170 - interact with you. Get the deepest shit you can think of and go pray about it. Go pray about it. 01:08:27.170 --> 01:08:33.149 - Get alone. So the emotions move so you can cry damn near about it. It hurts so deep, whatever. You know 01:08:33.149 --> 01:08:39.358 - what I'm saying? Bring that shit all the way up. Take that issue and say, if you re-approve yourself to me, 01:08:39.714 --> 01:08:45.677 - Right? Prove yourself to me. Talk to me. Share with me. Show with me. Give me some proof. Right? Ask. 01:08:45.677 --> 01:08:51.523 - Ask. Ask. But then don't be a dumb ass. You've asked the question of an unseen force that is in the 01:08:51.523 --> 01:08:57.370 - universe. And God will use any and everything in the universe to talk to you. Now you have to trust 01:08:57.370 --> 01:09:03.508 - what is happening inside. I've asked God a question of the universe. I asked a question to the universe. 01:09:03.508 --> 01:09:06.782 - God, whoever the fuck it is, he, she, blah, blah, blah. 01:09:06.978 --> 01:09:11.998 - Right names names or whatever fuck right? I've asked the only way I'm gonna really be able to get an 01:09:11.998 --> 01:09:17.117 - answer is to be listening Now I have to be listening and looking so you kind of got to turn other shit 01:09:17.117 --> 01:09:22.285 - down You can't just go do everything that you used to do now You see what I'm saying? You got it. Yeah, 01:09:22.285 --> 01:09:27.305 - that's what it is You can't just keep fucking moving around doing everything that you used to do You 01:09:27.305 --> 01:09:32.473 - kind of you know anything that ain't necessary don't do just chill the fuck out and wait on that answer 01:09:32.473 --> 01:09:36.350 - to a degree Not saying don't do your life, but you understand what I'm saying 01:09:36.674 --> 01:09:41.730 - Let's not go party. Let's not go freak with the girl. Let's not go, you know what I'm saying? Get drunk. 01:09:41.730 --> 01:09:46.737 - You see what I'm saying? Shut the fuck up and listen for this answer and just wait. Yeah, exactly. 100, 01:09:46.737 --> 01:09:51.649 - right? And when you do, remember you listening, right? And God will hit your ass with an answer. It's 01:09:51.649 --> 01:09:56.656 - going to come through the radio. It's going to come through the TV. It's going to come when you go over 01:09:56.656 --> 01:10:01.567 - your homeboy house. You're going to step in the door. Motherfucking TV going to say blah, blah, blah, 01:10:01.567 --> 01:10:06.238 - blah, blah. And your spirit going to be like me. And you're going to be like, damn, is that guy? 01:10:06.850 --> 01:10:12.403 - Was that, that mother just asked the question I've been asking. You gonna walk by my mother in the grocery 01:10:12.403 --> 01:10:17.748 - store, hear two people talking, they gonna say it. You see what I'm saying? That's how it happens. God 01:10:17.748 --> 01:10:22.937 - will use any and everything in the universe to give you that answer, but you gotta be listening for 01:10:22.937 --> 01:10:28.178 - it. And when it come, don't look at it as coincidence. If you look at it as coincidence, you off the 01:10:28.178 --> 01:10:33.524 - fucking path, you right back in the matrix. You ask the question, that nigga gave you an answer. Okay, 01:10:33.524 --> 01:10:36.222 - he gave you an answer. You walked by, you heard it. 01:10:37.122 --> 01:10:43.576 - Don't nobody in the universe know that you thinking about this thing cuz you asked it you see nothing 01:10:43.576 --> 01:10:50.029 - Now you wanted to it in the radio you run to it in the mother mother stole you run to it over you boy 01:10:50.029 --> 01:10:56.483 - How just some random movement in life you hear that answer, right? Trust that is God Okay, trust that 01:10:56.483 --> 01:11:02.810 - is spirit trust that is universe trust that is divine may trust that is your answer Move on it Move 01:11:02.810 --> 01:11:05.278 - on it. Yes, sir. And if you move on it 01:11:05.954 --> 01:11:14.057 - another thing gonna happen that's gonna let you know, oh shit, oh shit. God bless, this was a valuable 01:11:14.057 --> 01:11:22.553 - conversation. That is exactly how, yes. Then you realize, damn, I am on the right path. Some shit happening 01:11:22.553 --> 01:11:27.902 - here. So yes, it's real. And that's what you've experienced, right? 01:11:28.130 --> 01:11:33.878 - I'm experiencing it currently right now. You know, it's like that's why I'm over here. It's like this 01:11:33.878 --> 01:11:39.513 - ain't no accident Yeah, you know having this conversation, you know, I feel like I'm on my current, 01:11:39.513 --> 01:11:45.430 - uh, you know spiritual past Like currently right now, you know, you know, you know, and it's a struggle. 01:11:45.430 --> 01:11:51.178 - You know, I'm saying it's like Right this way they call faith coming, right? You know, I say all this 01:11:51.178 --> 01:11:56.926 - shit is religious terminology because that's how we understand it, right? I gotta do with no religion 01:11:57.378 --> 01:12:03.591 - But this is where faith come in. You know, you're doing right. Right. That's all you know. I'm doing 01:12:03.591 --> 01:12:09.927 - right. Yeah. Every fucking day and just listen for the signs and wait. So this is my theory about like 01:12:09.927 --> 01:12:16.201 - how motherfuckers like Freud and Einstein and Tesla became great minds, bro. They didn't have all the 01:12:16.201 --> 01:12:22.537 - distractions. They could sit with just that back in the day. They had TVs, cars, radios. You know what 01:12:22.537 --> 01:12:26.782 - I'm saying? These motherfuckers back in the time was just horses and 01:12:26.946 --> 01:12:33.969 - quiet times and shit, you know what I'm saying? So they could use their mind way more differently than 01:12:33.969 --> 01:12:40.788 - we do. We constantly, especially black folks, we're constantly trying to survive. So you never, you 01:12:40.788 --> 01:12:47.607 - hardly ever get to think deep, you know what I'm saying? Deep, deep philosophical perspectives that 01:12:47.607 --> 01:12:54.562 - might be of how the world really set up. You know what I'm saying? That shit is rare. And so I've had 01:12:54.562 --> 01:12:56.062 - that opportunity, but 01:12:57.474 --> 01:13:03.054 - You know, that shit was at a cost. I ain't get no money. I'm broke. You know what I'm saying? I'm a 01:13:03.054 --> 01:13:08.635 - poor man like everybody else now. You know what I'm saying? But that ain't really a concern for me. 01:13:08.635 --> 01:13:14.271 - I don't really consider myself poor. I feel like it's just a redirection of attention. That's how we 01:13:14.271 --> 01:13:19.963 - program. Can't eat no books, man. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Can't eat no books. Exactly, exactly, exactly. So 01:13:19.963 --> 01:13:26.046 - one of the things that I'm on is to prove to the world that watch my spirituality bring financial abundance. 01:13:26.210 --> 01:13:31.719 - That's what I'm finna prove because no, I'm not finna I'm not eating your matrix, but I'm not going 01:13:31.719 --> 01:13:37.393 - into your matrix to do shit to get the money out No, I'm going to live walking this spiritual shit and 01:13:37.393 --> 01:13:42.958 - I'm approved I'm a pull that shit in anyway, right? Yeah, I'm saying that's a proof. That's a that's 01:13:42.958 --> 01:13:48.632 - a task of my spiritual walk You see what I'm saying? That is one of my motherfucking tasks cuz I ain't 01:13:48.632 --> 01:13:51.166 - I can't go the other way. You know I'm saying 01:13:51.362 --> 01:13:56.846 - And that's where I'm at now too is like, I'm trying to free my mind, break the shackles of, you know, 01:13:56.846 --> 01:14:02.437 - just what I've been accustomed to, you know, because it wasn't working for me. And now I'm at the point 01:14:02.437 --> 01:14:05.502 - now in my life, like I need to do what's working for me.